.Balancing Act.

I don't know about any other Mum's but I just can't seem to balance everything. My kids need my attention, my husband needs my attention and then at the end of the day, where's my attention?

Take this morning for example: Harper wakes up for a feed at 5:30a.m. I should be thankful that she sleeps through the night, and I am, but the early starts are taking a toll on me. She's up, doesn't go back down and by 6, both Brett and Harly are also awake. I always put my needs last, which is what I agreed to do when I pushed these two little darlings out. So Harper finishes her bottle, Brett changes her then goes off for a surf. So I make myself a coffee. It's starting to become really cold in the mornings so I head up into the attic and grab the heater down. While telling Harly to leave her sister alone and also to not climb up the attic stairs! I get Harls out of her nappy and she goes to the toilet, then I put her undies on and dress her. I make Harly's breakfast and give it to her while she watches cartoons. By the way, I love TV. I don't let the girls watch all the time but in the mornings it is a God sent. And it also allows me to have a shower while Harper sleeps and Harly watches 'The Lion King' or something along those lines.

I sit on the floor and have a bit of a play with the girls. Lately, Harly thinks that Harper can play rough so she throws her about. Sometimes Harper even laughs but usually doesn't like it. We only play for about 20 minutes when Harly starts to really push Harper around. I tell her kindly to please stop a number of times before I send her to her room. When she comes out of her time-out I say "Please don't push your sister" to which she replies "I PUSH YOU" and she does. So back in her room for another 2 minutes!

Harper starts to get a bit grumpy on the floor so make her up a bowl of rice cereal with fruit puree. I also start my coffee. It's not even warm anymore :( I also make myself a bowl of muesli. I usually try to feed Harper and myself at the same time but she gets fed up with waiting that I just put my bowl to the side and keep feeding her. I drink my cold coffee. By this time, Harper's done like 3 poos and she's a bit snotty and tired so I put her in bed. She cries for about 10 minutes and puts herself to sleep. Harly has started asking for things "RIGHT NOW" so I have to deal with her attitude. And Brett's still enjoying his surf. It's only 9 a.m. I still have so much to do!

Harlyn is climbing all over me while I'm typing and wants morning tea already. I'm always needed by my children and that's fine because they can't do things for themselves yet. I clean up after everyone, including Brett and it's everyday! I just want a little break occasionally. And just sometimes, I wish I could just enjoy a hot cup of tea of coffee. Or be able to eat my breakfast, lunch or dinner in ONE go. I know it will be a while before I can enjoy these simple pleasures again but if you're pregnant or thinking of having kids, don't take those things for granted! I can't wait for Mothers Day next Sunday. I'm going to sleep in, have breakfast in bed! And not going to clean for the whole day!!

I also really respect working Mum's!! I can't imagine trying to get all of these things done plus pack their daycare bags, go and work an 8 hour day then without a break, unpack the daycare bags, clean up the house, cook dinner, bath kids and then have time to spend with your husband... I am really lucky and blessed that I can stay at home with the kids and take them to the park. It's not hard, it's just really time consuming. A lot of the time, I wish my house was a hell of a lot cleaner than what it is. I just need another one of me. Can someone please tell me when cloning becomes a real thing?

Harly, Harper & me x